Yom Kippur

Who am I to You, Yahweh?
King of Kings, Lord of Lords,
The Great I am that I am
Elohim above ALL Elohim
Why do you care for me?
As dirty and sinful as I am?
As many times as I fall
flat on my shameful face
because of these stubborn
ingrained
mindsets
behaviors
tumultuous feelings
manifesting as
  pride
  arrogance
selfishness

Self this - self that
Self-pity
Self-rejection
Self-centeredness
Self-focused
Self-neglect

Self
Self
Self

Deliver me from the bondage of self.

You and only You can free me,
forgive me
  purge me
 renew me
  regenerate me
  heal me…

Resetting my soul before all the trauma, drama, and chaos that hijacked my heart, my brain, and my very soul. Morphing me into this self-absorbed wounded animal, nursing my wound, and creating a barrier around my heart, self-protecting even from You, my Deliverer.

Will I, even I, be written in Your book of Life, or will I be written in Your book of the dead?